nearly six weeks since i last cut.

i guess i could say that i’ve ‘stopped’ or that i’m passed it, but i can’t, i still get urges and i still feel the need to cut, it’s been so hard for me not to cut over the past six weeks.

i guess it’s been made somewhat easier by the fact i seem to have replaces cutting with hitting, i’m covering my body in bruises rather than cuts and scars.

right now i want to cut more than i have since the last time, and hitting is not enough right now, not at all, i feel it’s a massive achievement for me to have gone this long, but i feel like i’m about to break and throw all that time away, but come on, i knew i would because lets face it, i’m a pathetic, weak, disgusting excuse for a person.